Heated

4:47PM - Branching off
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Theres no way you can say Hip Hop artists dont listen to a variety of music
Exhibit A:




Before I say this, no I am not taking drugs or drunk (right now lol) but... I think Im feelin this kinda music....?
Yeah I know I know lol

Say what you want but its pretty dope in its own British way .

Thats all I wanted to say haha open your horizons!

- W o n d o n

1:46PM - Scratch what I said earlier....
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Thats jus what happens when I wake up mad.. I thought I was about to tear the whole house down with that one.. But Im good now. Life is still ehhh but I love it regardless..

Might go to the pool in a bit... Who knows we'll see

Peace


- W o n d o n

9:46AM - Too f*cking heated for words
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Life sucks..

Dont try to tell me it doesnt, we don't have the same life

My life sucks more than yours does.

Peace

- W o n d o n

Inspiration!

11:26PM - Feelin extra inspired tonight
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I jus got into my little late-night zones where I just feel a beat and black out on it. Which beat was it? Mine, thats all you gotta know for now.. But lemme assure you I think this is one of the deepest tracks I've written in a very long time.. But there will be another deep track on the tape (yes there will be a tape soon).. But there hasnt been too much real planning for me to be givin yall a date so jus chill lol All I got right now is a handful of tracks (hot tracks, mind you) and a thin stack of lyrics Im about to go over tomorrow.. But yeah, Leggits tape coming really really really soon. T-Bones tape coming soon also. GET READY!

Cause then Im gonna drop my sh*t on you like a ton of bricks, get them iron umbrellas out.. Im a weirdo i know lol

Its funny cause I got called a weirdo today by a girl who was sucking the ink out of her red pen... Hipocritical maybe? I think so

But yeah a lot has happened between this post and the last one.. Went to a few cookouts, got messed up, quit one of my 'bad habbits', Kyles Bday, found out I scored advanced on all the exams I took (can you say SYCED), made a couple friends, and uh yeah,, some other stuff I won't mention cause I know itll come back to get me..

So basically it went pretty tight..

I got some new software which means my beats are sounding better (look out when I drop the new ish)


What else what else.. I dont really know what else I can put on this to entertain you, you gotta be in my life to join in on the fun. But yeah I'll post up later, Im about to do some more writin. Holla!


- W o n d o n

Back to my normal happy self

7:52PM - Okay I take that back...
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You know how I said its [un]safe to say Im over her?

Yeah unsafe lol.

Jus scratch all that but umm, Im not gonna be pressed.

Im just gonna keep my hopes at a more reasonable level... For as long as I can...

But yeah she liked the song..

But of course she doesnt know whos it about.

Nice...

But dont blame me for being slow

I dont wanna kill it before it comes to life...

Feel me?

Anyway I chilled with T-Bone today.. And yesterday.

That was fun lmao those who were there know what went down.

But yeah Im out for tonight. Later.

- W o n d o n

Wtf happened yesterday

1-:14PM - So I came to a conclusion
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Tryin to get over someone by focusing your attention on another person won't ever really work. It'll tangle up your feelings for person 1 with the new found feelings you gain for person 2.

I guess what Im about to do is a bad idea then lol

This week = on and poppin...

Or at least it will be a straight one lol

night!


- W o n d o n

3:01PM - Iight Im Good
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Its [un]safe to say Im over the whole her thing. But ya never know. Im still the chill me thats still down. But unpressed. Feel me?

Anyway, Im changin up the blog, goin from green to blue. Imma switch back if I don't like it tho. Im just switchin up the banner and makin the font coordinate with it. Simple enough, no?

Anyway, I dont have another test until wednesday so Im wonderin if I should bother goin.

Im sober again, stayin that way for a while.

The music is goin good, beat making is going, and Im feeling pretty decent right now.
Whatever...

Im dyin to hear the rest of the Relapse album.
That sh*ts gonna be hot, I dont care what anybody says

Cause those same people think wayne is the best thing to happen to hip hop lol, yeah umm. Die.. lol jus playin, but ur taste is dead so go do somethin about that

Dont mind me Im jus ramblin right now

Waiting for some excitement, I think I found it

Better yet, she found me. But yeah Im goooood
lol dont pay too much attention to that previous sentence.

Im out!


- W o n d o n


7:54AM- Wired still?!
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Yesterday was a trip. And we decided the word 'waste' is a hypocritical word lol I blow my mind with my own mind. Its like Brain masturbation??

Wtf jus shut up Don lol

Anyway, 6Hr Energy + Monster Energy drink = bad stomach

on tha plus side i havent slept in like 20 hrs... if thats a plus side?

its looking more like negative, until now cause I jus remembered I started a pretty good beat last night on top of writin a couple verses. This tape is gonna be a hot one!

But anyway, thats it for right now

Im about to knock out. Peace


- W o n d o n

Okay this is it..

10:22AM - What am I about to do?
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Well one side of me wants to give up

still...

and the other is still optimistic and hoping there will be some kinda miracle... still..

But Im just getting tired of the whole thing and I think Im gonna give up (something I rarely do)

But yeah, not saying shes not worth the effort... but the way this whole thing is going (extra slow with no promises), I don't think its worth it. F*ck it

Whatever...

- W o n d o n

Helpppp

8:54PM - Still pressed on you-dont-know-who
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You know how when you wanna get your feelings off of a girl so you look for another girl who you think looks even better?

Yeah well thats useless in this scenario, there is no one better.

And thats what happens when you shoot for the top, boys and girls

The thing is, she shot me.

Either her or cupid. One of the two..

Either way Im stuck!

Grrr

Its kinda hard to build up a friendship with someone you don't get to spend any time with.

I would say f*ck life but its the other way around. Feel me? She doesnt...

Anything that has happened to me in my life can be replayed 25,000 times but for some reason it wouldnt stick like the image of her face does. 

I told her not to be a stranger lol

I never knew how much I would mean it later on..

How long am I gonna blog about this? As long as its the only thing I can think about!

Oh and yeah yesterday was my birthday. Woohoo!

I need a job.

I need her.

I need a drink.

Jus kiddin

(Kidding again).

Nah Im good, Im jus gonna go to sleep thinkin about her again. Either that or how pitiful I am for still thinking about her and wondering if she has ever even brought me into her thoughts before.

She has no idea who the f*ck I am really. Because I think if she did, I wouldn't be so alone right now.

F*ck it.

Im gonna go hopelessly wait by the phone playing "Well Isn't This Awkward"... like f*ck it.

Its like he's writin my lyrical biography or somethin. Thanks Charles lol.

Anyway, if you (the her that I've been talkin/thinkin about for a while now) are reading this right now.... Hit a nigga up! lol You got me trippin.

And listen to my f*cking song already! Love is you, love. lol real talk tho you dont even have to give me a response, just let me see a reaction. I mean I understand if you heard my Poke Her Face Remix and didn't spazz but I pretty much put it ALL out there (except for your name) on Love Is You so check that sh*t out!

Grrr. Theres no cure for this sh*t. 

Too pressed.

- W o n d o n

Hopelessness

2:17PM - Hopelessness
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Im walking (keepin my balance) on the fine line between hopelessness and hopefulness.

I dunno how Im gonna make this happen, but umm... Yeah

I can slowly feel the huge grin of optimism on my face starting to fade

I dont think shes that into me.

But then I do.

But then I dont.

Mixed signals suck.

Anyway, I hit her up on myspace and told her to check the song out.

No response yet.

Im hoping she didnt hear it because at least if she didn't hear it thats the reason for not responding

If she heard it and didn't respond then I scared her away

Unless she doesnt know who its for (her, obviously)

But I guess I gotta make stuff a lot more obvious.

Im gonna show her (and tell her who its for) next time we chill. (Whenever that is)

But Im gonna start trying to be less syced about all this, because like I said, whenever I get too excited for somethin, it usually comes crashing down in front of me...

..And we havent even gotten started yet. 

Needless to say Im not in the best of moods, I think Im gonna go for a drive or somethin. Peace

- W o n d o n

Awkward...

9:03PM - So bittersweet...
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So yeah Im a step closer... which is good because Ive been standing still for so long in this little situation..

Its kinda bittersweet though

Im super syced because its lookin like Im finally gettin somewhere, but at the same time Im feelin like its worse

Maybe Im worried about the fact that I put myself out there and doing that hasnt gotten me to a good place before (the reason Im single now)...

Maybe Im waiting for someone to pinch me and let me know Im dreaming...

Or maybe Im just worrying about being let down from such a high place that Im in right now

Either way Im over thinking this whole thing... 

It feels like it can go either way though, honestly I don't have a clue whats goin on on the other side. All I know is that I am really feelin the youngin

I dont think Ive been pressed this hard since middle school

and pretty much EvErYbOdY has asked me who she is

But as usual, the girl its really about is the only one who isnt aware of whats goin on

I feel like giving up again... But I would be kicking myself in the ass for the longest time if I let something like this slide

Shes the best...

Real talk tho, I've been listenin to "Well Isn't This Awkward..." by Charles Hamilton ever since this whole thing started. And I relate to every song on it perfectly:

^

^

^

Its crazy how well I understand how he felt making this track

It kinda got on my nerves today that I wrote the hottest verse in a while, and it was about 'her'.

That would make two tracks in less than a weeks time.

Last time I was pressed this hard was... Well lets leave that for another time.

But yeah this is different. Somebody who I see ALL THE TIME, somebody who is actually in the same state, but somebody who is not too far from that acquaintance level.

I kinda got a confidence booster tho, Candice told me she believes in me lol

And how come everybody thinks its Candice? lol what I cant have a female friend?

I dont kick game to every girl come on now lol

But yeah Im gonna try and get my mind off her, which will most likely make me think about her even more

I'll post up later.

Peace

- W o n d o n

Time Will Tell

3:13PM - Its killin me!
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The only thing worse than being rejected is the anxiety and uncertainty of what will happen. You already know the worst could happen is rejection. Right? Right.

So why is it that its much more intense when you don't know if you'll be rejected?

Think about that one


Anyway its saturday, I had a pretty cool time yesterday, could've been better. Im quitting certain bad habbits for good now. I dont need it. Congrats to me?

Anyway Im bored, anxious because this thing is still heavy on my mind, and yeah... Damn.

I dont even wanna talk about it. (Shocker, I know)

Peace


- W o n d o n