Dont relapse, Don, whatever you do dont relapse!

Ughh...

The day seems to go by so much slower nowadays

I dont wanna post what 'it' is exactly (for certain reasons) but i need 'it' really bad

For those who know what Im talkin about, cool, everybody else, it doesnt really matter. All that really matters is what not having 'it' is doin to me

Im goin crazy, bored around the house doin nothin. Cant touch tha pen and pad, cant make a single beat that Im feelin, Ive barely eatin a full meal all day now that I think about it

Damn, Don you need help lol

It wasn't like this before though, what was life before it?? Im tryna think

Im sure it wasnt THIS boring but damn.. I need some kinda push if Im gonna make it thru the week, because I cant stand being without it right now..

I guess Im about to blast my headphones and pick somethin nice to listen to.. Because thats the only thing that seems to help EVERYTHING.. Just need the right song..

I'll prolly bump to some Charles Hamilton lol

Im not tryna be a fanatic but when you got an artist thats that real, that raw, that dope, that lyrical, and has been through that much, its just so much more closer to the 'real thing' Ive been looking for in music than any other artist.

I always felt like the game has been missin somethin, and I think I realized what it was. A Charles Hamilton.. lol

But that still doesnt change the fact that Im without my 'it'

DAMN

I think Imma call a girl up or somethin because thats another one of the only things that takes my mind off of it.

But girls these days, it gets hectic lol I was in a little love triangle before, now its like an octogon with a bunch of lines scribbled over it

I jus broke up with that one

I was just talking to this one but now we're dumbing it down for a while

Ive been crushing on that one for the longest and everytime it seems like its something promising, the bubble of feelings is busted

And this one is confusing me everytime we talk. But i dunno though. Because shes actually showin signs of comin around.

Before it was confusing and a lack in communication but we've been talkin a lot more so ish is seemin clearer... I wanna say Im gonna have her (and Im usually right) but for now Im just gonna see how things go..


Girls... haha

Speakin of which I jus started gettin in touch with my ex again.

It was pretty cool, it was like we didnt really stop talkin for a few months (which we did)

Thats what we always do. Stop talkin for a long time, start again. Most of it due to jealous boyfriends who i will not name (he knows who he is)... (and so does she)

But its whatever. Maybe one day he'll realize he has been too overprotective. And when I say overprotective I mean he wants her to have absolutely no male friends at all..

But like I said its whatever.. He doesn't know what she means to me and that I can understand because it took a long time for it too build.

It would be pretty ill if me and her linked up again but Im not keeping in touch with her just to break up their relationship. Dumb niggas needa understand that.

I jus rather have her in my life, cause shes been down for me for the longest and no nigga could ever take that away from me, I refuse.

Anyway, my weekend's goin pretty slow and Im hopin the week goes by at a decent rate.

I heard the party was whack so Im glad I missed it

Im jus gonna continue to be fustrated for the rest of the weekend

Peace

-W o n d o n