Spring Break '09 Continued Pt. 3

2:01AM - Feelin Good!
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Hey waddup world? Happy Easter by the way!
Not too much went down between now and my last post so im not even gonna write about any of that. I've been living tha last couple days with a clouded mind so Im about to get some green tea goin in my system and jus lay back and rest

It just hit me but, it was a pretty long break and Im ready to get back to workin (education and other things)

But yeah as for the things I needed to get off my chest last post...

I guess it roots back to the hookah bar scene on friday

There was a group of girls coming into the place, one of them stuck out to me the most.. Pretty attractive (thats an understatement but yeah you get the picture), looked like somebody I would talk to

I guess my lookin at her was noticeable to the rest of the people I was there with because they were all 'Jon you should go talk to her' and I was all like 'Nahhhh, thats okay'

Partly because I was a little too lightheaded to be moving around, and partly because I was being too human. By that I mean too nervous, too self conscious, not courageous enough to do it. Human isnt the right word, the right word to describe me was 'slacking'.

You know that feeling you get after you pass up an opportunity you know you wanted to take up? It was somethin like that

I walked out and I was thinkin 'damn, whats wrong with you Don? You could've easily got her number'. And I know I couldve. It wasnt even a confidence thing it was just that 'plunge' that I wasn't down to take.

And lemme elaborate on my usage of the word 'plunge' in this situation

Whenever you go to a pool on a hot day, the water automatically feels cool (cold) when you touch it. And you cant slowly get in, it would take you forever that way. So what you do is you take the plunge. All the fun you can have is to be had 'inside' the pool, and youre missing out on all of the action standing alongside watching the water and everything going on in it. So what you have to do is take that plunge. And after you take that plunge you'll realize how easy it is to do and after taking part of all the action, you'd do it all again in a heartbeat.

So after that long and confusing analogy, heres how I break it down

What I need to do is stop thinking about it so much (because I overthink everything) and take the plunge. I cant gradually find my way 'inside' because it will take too long, so the best thing I could do is jump in. Get it? Hope so lol, if not whatever, it was for me to get

But yeah, for now on Im plunging, now more inching into the mix.

And I know all these fake ass attention-seekers always talk about they're on they're Obama-Change bs and not change anything in their life, but by now you know Im not those other people.
I could care less who pays attention to the changes I make in MY life or who believes that Im working towards improving myself. Why? Because thats all to improve me, not entertain someone else. When I start living to entertain other people, I'll trade in my head for a TV. For now, Im keeping my head and Im using it the right way (Proud of me? lol)

But yeah, there was a party yesterday. Completely whack but I'm really not complaining. Why? Two things. One, it was a party in (You dont needa know where) and parties that go down around there can't be that great. Two, the only person I was remotely interested in meeting there was there. That made it worth going, otherwise I wouldve been completely heated lol thanks for going, you know who you are (or not. oh well lol)

What else was I gonna say? Think think think! lol I get distracted too easy. Theres this movie on FX about a teacher or somethin who teams up with these two high school girls to scam money from one of the girl's mom and they stage this court case dispute complicated type ish lol If you've seen it you know what Im talking about lol but yeah this movie's crazy

But yeah I cant remember what I was gonna say so it couldnt have been that important. So to sum things up, Im upgrading, plunging, chilling, laying back, and enjoying the rest of my Spring Break! Ill post up again tomorrow. Peace!

- W o n d o n